okay i have to say i'm pretty disappointed and pissed off. her reaction to all my requests to go out with my friends is always great reluctance and unwillingness. why, i wonder? why can't she like be other people's mums? maybe she had no friends during her schooling years and so she expects me to be the same as well. jealous that i can go out with friends when she couldn't last time. sometimes i really think so, judging from her prolonged decision-making time, which can span a few days. and the result is people thinking i'm anti-social or very 大牌 or something and me getting the cold shoulder and i have to tolerate this for another year and a half. yeah, great. and now my chances of going out with my primary school pals are so damn slim i can't even see them. cos i had to say that the teachers' day gathering this year would be the last time i'm going out to see my primary school friends. and the 6R chalet was the last, "so i have to go". how hilarious, isn't it.
maybe i'm being unfilial or blah blah blah but i really don't care. i have to clear myself of that name. i have to say it out (or write it out) if not i'll go bonkers.